Women’s Devotion | April 2019
Have you ever asked yourself, “What is my purpose? Where do I fit in? Do I really matter?” Have you ever wondered what the reason is for your existence? The truth is, most of us have grappled with these thoughts at some point in our lives. Whether it is questioning our sufficiency as wives, mothers or friends, we (as women) often times wonder how well we are measuring up to society’s standards. How well are we measuring up to those around us? Do I even matter?
As a pastor’s wife, these thoughts can become frequent and compounded. My husband and I have been in ministry together for about 16 years. We have been serving as Senior Pastors of the Lighthouse Church of God in Douglas Georgia for over eight years now. Throughout the years, I have often observed others around us and in my opinion; I didn’t seem to be measuring up to what was expected of a pastor’s wife.
I’m not a very outspoken person in our local church. In other words, I am not a preacher. I try to avoid the mic at all costs and by no stretch of the imagination am I a singer. On occasions I would ask my husband if I was really a help to him in ministry because I sure didn’t feel like it. He would do his best to lovingly encourage me and tell me I am exactly what he needs in life and for ministry. It was always reassuring to hear him say these words to me, but I still couldn’t help but wonder if I was truly an asset to the work of the ministry. After all, I couldn’t do it like all the others and they were doing it well.
One Sunday, I was not able to attend due to job obligations. By vocation I work for our local blood donation facility and this requires me to be on the road a lot, even on weekends. This certainly didn’t help things by having to miss some Sundays. Many times I would wonder if the congregation even missed me when I wasn’t there. I really hate not being able to be there, but hey, who would miss me anyway? When I returned the following Sunday, I was showered with hugs and affection from our church family expressing how they miss me when I’m not able to attend service. Immediately, The Holy Spirit spoke to my heart. He reminded me it wasn’t about my ability to preach, teach or even sing the perfect song. It’s about being who He created and equipped me to be in Christ Jesus for good works (Ephesians 2:10). The good work that God created us for extends much farther than the pulpit. Whether it’s a simple hug, smile, visit, gentle word of encouragement or to lovingly care for our families as a wife, these are good works! The truth of the matter is God has lovingly, intentionally and purposefully designed us in Christ Jesus for good works.
Don’t sell yourself short! You are needed in the body of Christ! It is indescribable how that made me feel–to know that my presence mattered to them. Not only did I matter to our church family, but in that moment God was showing me how much I mattered to Him as well. There are many voices in this world that are contending for our ears trying to tell us we aren’t good enough or we just don’t matter. We must know the voice of The Shepherd that reminds us we are loved and our lives are filled with purpose. WE MATTER!!
It is the intention of our adversary, the devil, to get us to question our value and worth. God tells us in His word that every hair on our head has a number. Wow, now that’s detailed! Whether we have a head full or just a little covering the top, God has it numbered. He then reminds us we are worth more than two sparrows sold for one cent. If birds of the least value matter to Him, then certainly we are of more importance to God (Matthew 10:29-30). So, no matter what your role is in life or your local church, just know you are important to God and Your Presence Matters.
Alisa Johnson is the wife of Pastor Craig Johnson. They have been married for 23 years and have one daughter, Asjah Johnson. Called to serve at The Light House Church of God, Bishop Craig and Alisa have held this role for almost 8 years. Alisa is a phlebotomist and works for the local blood bank in Douglas, Georgia. In her spare time, she enjoys decorating, relaxing and shopping with friends. Alisa’s favorite scripture is, “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28.